Tomorrow is the day that I thought wouldn’t ever come but the day that is going to change the rest of my life. Tomorrow I am going to Nepal. 

Twelve weeks. That is a looong time. But I feel so very blessed to be in Nepal for twelve weeks. I cannot wait to see what God is going to do through me and in me. I know that He will be in every moment whether it be good or bad. I know that these next twelve weeks, even though they may seem like a long time, are going to go so fast and I just pray that I soak up every moment. I pray that I fall in love with the people and the culture and fall more in love with Him who created it even more. 

Just knowing that people are praying for me and supporting me means so much to me. I was talking with my aunt a few minutes ago and she said to me, “Go show those people how big of a heart you have.” I know that my heart is gonna get even bigger while I am there, I know God is going to open my eyes to things that I had not thought about before. I know I am going to fall in love while I am over there.

Going to Nepal is going to be a once in a lifetime opportunity and I pray that I always remember that and that I don’t take anything for granted. 

My heart is open for God to use me however He wants. 

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Tonight I went to Prof G’s house along with Mark and Nikalee. He and his wife have blessed my socks off. They are so generous and it is so comforting talking about the trip to Nepal with people who have lived there and know what we are going to experience. 

He has us over to his house so that we can learn basic Nepali before we go but every visit is so much more than that. Last year they cooked us a traditional Nepali meal that we had to eat with our hands. I shared my fears about possibly having to help mothers in child birth and stitching people up. He assured us there was only one bus crash over the cliff that they needed the whole hospital staff to help with, many many  hours of stitching ensued. I am praying that doesn’t happen, not so much for my sake but for those on the bus. 

This week we started by riding a four wheeler, eating chocolate chip banana bread, soaking in his hot tub and a bonfire. Only at Cedarville will you be invited over to a prof’s house where that was on the agenda for the night. They taught us how to say eat, drink, I, and some other simple Nepali phrases while eating the bread, none of which I remember now. The only two words I remember are cup and cake because they are exactly the same. This is going to be a long summer. 

During the bonfire we talked to him about our fears, our parents fears, and more of what we were doing. He told us that he talked about singleness and being married in regards to missions today in his class and I realized Nikalee, Mark and I are all going with different relationship status’. Nikalee is engaged, Mark is in a relationship, and I am single. Dr. G joked about me coming back engaged and I told him that was one of parent’s biggest fears. And in all honesty, one of mine. I cannot even imagine that happening. 

I find myself worrying about the little things. With less than a month to go I an almost panicking. Nepal is one of those trips that you know you are going to go on but never thought it would ever come and now that it is almost here you have no idea what to do or think. 

I need to trust God more. I know He has already worked everything out and I know it is going to be an unforgettable twelve weeks. I need to stop focusing on myself and start focusing on Him. All nerves aside, I cannot wait until this summer.

And I found out I am going to be a discipleship leader next year. God is blessing the poo out of me today! 

God has taught me a lot this past year. I cannot thank Him enough for what He has brought me out of. 

In my leadership class we had to take a personality test and it told me exactly what I knew about myself, that I am a relational person and focus on the feelings of others. I know this can be a really good thing but sometimes it can be a really bad thing. As I was listening to my professor talk about my personality test images of this past year came to mind and I realized why at certain times I couldn’t say no or I was afraid to walk away from an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship. I value relationships so much that even when I know they aren’t good for me I can’t let them go because I don’t want to lose that person. I am so thankful that I know that now that God gave me a swift kick in the butt and got me out of that relationship.

Now instead of being filled up by a completely empty relationship He is filling me up with Himself. 

The other day I was running and I was praying and talking to God about relationships and how I long to be in one. I heard God clearly say to me Trust Me, Love Me! Trust Him. I need to trust Him. God will bring someone into my life when I am ready but right now I know my heart is still healing, I am still becoming who He wants me to be before I can be anyone to someone else. 

Each day I live, each day I love Him He is making me into who He wants me to be. This past year was the hardest year of my life but through God I overcame. And I know this summer is going to be the best summer of my life. I cannot wait to overcome living in Nepal for twelve weeks with my Father living in me and helping me through every second of every day. I cannot wait to see what challenges I have to face because I know I am not facing them alone. 

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Have you ever seen a palm tree in the midst of a great storm? That tree may be bent so far over that it’s almost touching the ground, but when the wind finally stops, that palm tree bounces right back up. What’s interesting is that while that palm tree is hunched over under the pressure of the storm, it is actually growing stronger?

The reason God said we’d flourish like a palm tree is because He knew there would be difficult times. He knew things would come against us to try to steal our joy and victory. God said, “You’re going to be like a palm tree because when the storms of life blow, you are going to come right back up stronger than before.” Nothing can hold you back! No weapon formed against you will prosper.

As you reflect on the events over the last year, remember, the storms you have encountered have only made you stronger. You are wiser, you are more alive, and you are headed for victory. You’re brightest days are right out in front of you! Always remember that with God on your side, nothing can hold you back!

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